Do you journal? I used to write in a journal all the time growing up. I would write the usual stuff that dominated my life in my late teens/early twenties: my hopes for the future, my biggest rants, who I was crushing on at the moment (OH.EM.GEE.). It was definitely a catharsis. I could pour everything onto the pages and walk away feeling lighter and less burdened.
Not too long ago, I bought a pretty, new journal to try to get back in to writing, but it remains in my drawer, completely blank. The material is definitely there, but I can’t find the motivation to actually pick up the pen. I think the thought of confronting some things in my life right now honestly scares me.
I’ve kept all of my old journals (even the one with the bright stickers that reads, “DIARY” on the cover, lol) and I have a habit of reading old entries before writing a new one. While most of the time, my former self’s entries only elicit cringing eye rolls, sometimes seeing how unafraid and hopeful I was gets to me. It’s funny how when I was younger, I would dream without any restrictions at all. The world was full of possibility and I feared nothing. After my first semester of college, I made a list of every country I wanted to visit and every work of art I wanted to see in my journal. A cultural bucket list of sorts. But the older I get, the faster time passes, and I wonder if I’m really going to check all of those things off of my list.
I’m curious if this is just me, or do you find writing a good way to sort things out? If so, how often do you write? And do you ever go back and read old entries?